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Life and Its simplicities"Love is bigger than Macaroni" -Faytofavalon
The pain that will occur will devastate you more than you think what will be left of me is already going off of the brink falling into a torrent of sorrow and pain wrecking what little left is of my brain leaving more brokenness and shame FearI dread the thoughts i think the doubts that dwell in me whenever will I feel that peace… the peace that was once upon me? This phobia tears me from the inside leaving me empty and dry Broken Shattered Torn Confused When will something become new Is it true that I will always will move this way? Will my mind always be in a state of disarray? I spin around thought I saw you behind me running through these corridors searching for you the one I am missing the most remember those days when we were smiling laughing as happy as we could be? I wish you could see what could be oh darling what could be Fun times I wish you could walk with me but I take too many steps too fast it’s hard to keep up to pace with me even running with everything in your stride maybe someday you will catch up be able to pass me or stroll hand in hand with me watching the stars above us in the sky Won’t you listen to me what I have to say is something that will make a difference in all of this mess I am always at the back of your mind I am not something easily gained won’t you try to see what I want to display? don’t you want to understand what’s changing? I am quite hard to be heard but if you try try you might learn I turn walking away sad how things turned out to be Can even a friendship mean nothing to someone being so mean? I offer my heart felt gratitude Always never trying to be rude The next day you spit in my face Now you wonder why I want all of this to be erased…. Someday we will be able to dance in the light singing laughing twirling to what was meant to be Darling can’t you see how much you mean to me? I would rather have my mind flayed alive than to make you cry I would rather starve for days than to see you in pain… The feeling is knawing at my tearing apart my stomach Making my curl into a ball and whimper Where have you gone? What am I missing? Who are you? What’s happened to me? Why why why did this pain grow deeper? Not a favorite one I wrote I don’t like it it’s ok but it doesn’t feel like my style if that makes any sense. The unexplainable joy I have when you are around me. How long will this last though? What tragedy will make us stray from this path? That is a fear I have everyday that we will part seperate ways I don’t want to watch you walk away To leave me laying in the mud wondering what happened that day that day when you turned and went your way Look with big eyes to the sky watching for the stars to dance across the horizon to the unknown shores across the sea wondering where the streaks are landing in the vast beauty Where they crash is where I am going to be So run… run try to find me Whatever it takes come I need you here next to me I am under the great oak tree letting the leaves flow on me Here I am walk walk closer towards me I am wondering what your thoughts are right now. What’s flowing through your head? Are you curious of what is to be or are you pondering what is going to happen die because of disease? Don’t forget to watch out for the hope that’s on the horizon if you don’t do that now you will crash on the shore of a barren wasteland across the shore from where you were meant to be born. Follow the star shining across the sky guiding you in every stride don’t lose hope when all seems lost Toss everything of you at the sea it will guide you close to me. The currents flow toward what is left of me… piece together what you find of me and maybe I will be something… Step Twist Turn Sway with the flow of the music Each step moving with the rhythm of music Swinging with each chord that flows around you body Let your mind be at ease with the melody reverberating through you Staring at the ceiling wondering when those thoughts will appear again of the remembrance of the past of what was lost and what could have been. I will stay here staring at the wall with a blank stare wondering where you have gone. The music reverberating in the background striking broken cords reminding me that the strings that strung my heart are out of discord. When will this pain cease? Will it ever stop bleeding? |
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