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Thanksgiving

Time is twisting and twirling







falling between the cracks in the planet







it's life fading away







I hear the cries of the living







of life slowly dying







feeling everything with my heart















I see the decay of everything around me







the screams of ones lost







the dead moaning for love







if only I had the strength







to fight for another day







to do what I can















but what can one man do to make amends?







To show love to those around him?







To show respect for everything?















Music causes me to be in this harmony with everything around me... it makes me think straight and true and really gets me connected with my thoughts and my feelings....







The love of life and living is what drives me but at the same time it is easy to get off track which drives me crazy. I do it quite often and have to fight to go where I need to go.







Where am I suppose to be?







What am I suppose to do?







I ask myself a lot of questions and as them again to myself in time to see if any of these answers have changed. I feel like I am going to limit myself in what I am suppose to do.















Kinda failed at the getting up at six o'clock... Need to try more....















My thoughts feel so cluttered and what I thought was once organized is what really is a mess but I guess that it really is how people see things in the end.















My heart is crying out.







I wish I knew what to say.







I wish I knew What to do.







All I feel like I can mumble under my breath is







I miss you















It is something hard for me to say







a thing that tears me apart







causing tears to stream down my face







but it is something that is true







I really do miss you















I wonder what you are thinking right now







what is running through your mind







how you really feel







wishing if I knew you really cared















Someday I will be able to tell you face to face







but that day won't be for some time away















Blah I feel all blah inside and have been a mess.







The snow is melting.







I am going to miss the snow...







I am going to miss the beauty it shows...