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Choices

So lately I have been running around doing random things all week. I haven't really set goals yet to what I am going to get done... I am assuming that would probably be the best thing for me to do right now. Maybe I will set the goals.... soon? I need to think about what would be best to set. I have been mentally back and forth, up and down not sure what choice I should make right now. Where am I going to live? What am I going to do? What am I going to do for school? Will I be with the person I am with or will it change? Should I even make this choice or will I regret it?

The most frustrating choices of all of the ones I have are ones that I either have to make the choices I need to or the ones where you want to make someone else happy. I made that choice when I went to College. I started doing Nursing because I was being pushed and people thought that was best for me. That wasn't a choice I made. I let others mold me into what I was going to be and I am learning that more and more the more you let others mold you the less you are really you.

So now I am making that choice.... Will I do things that I need to do? or will I let everything fall into a pit of turmoil and despair trying to please others in my actions? 

Right now more than anything I need help to get on my feet. I need to go back to school and do what I felt like I should have done this entire time.

 

Joshua